The past few months I have been dealing with saying goodbye and a lot of loss.
WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN??????????????
3 friends died all way to young to die, and a baby who never even had a chance to begin. WHY?
They say that everything happens for a reason and that there are no mistakes. That is if that is you belief system. I sometimes WONDER.
Throughout all of this loss, working though my grief, I realized upon some reflection that I learned a tremendous amount about LIVING and DYING.
My friend and co-worker Steve who died, fought tirelessly in the early days of the AIDS epidemic. He continued to fight for many years to bring awareness to the cause, all why battling his own fight with diabetis.
From Steve I learned the importance of SERVICE.
It did not matter he had his own struggles. Steve would always lend a hand whether he had the time or not and always happy to do so.
My friend Gia who passed away during childbirth. Both she and her son baby Samson died during the delivery.
From Gia that when you believe in something so passionately and commit to it so wholeheartedly you may lose your life and die for your belief.
Baby Samson who never saw the light of day, but left the gift of love and strength and knowledge that when faced with tough situations that you do not think is possible that you can get though. To know that you can and will persevere.
Most recently my friend Linda who left her family and friends at just 45. She taught me that as sad as her loss is and was, if you are doing what you love and being truthful to yourself and are a good person, it does not matter when you transition.............
You can do it with COURAGE & PEACE
Also what is there to FEAR.
My biggest fear prior to me making major changes in my life was to arrive at the end of my JOURNEY with a life full of REGRETS and a life UN-LIVED.
I WANT TO THANK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU, FOR GIFTS THAT YOU WERE IN MY LIFE AND THE LESSONS I HAVE LEARNED FROM YOU.
Some of you were in my life for a brief period of time and some not at all. But either way you have giving me things to reflect upon and to learn about this crazy wonderful thing called life.
Again Thank you.
May you all rest in peace knowing that you have all touched so many lives.
When I write, I need to just write. Again I apologize for a few typos.
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I just read your beautiful post and wanted to thank you. In Buddhism we say that life and death are two sides of the same coin. But the Buddha also said that parting from those we love is one of the greatest sufferings. So which is it? Somehow you have captured these opposites in your piece. I think this is what makes you a rich person. Sad are those who never reflect, feel or face these questions. Your friends were so lucky to have known you, too!
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