2 SIDES OF THE SAME COIN!!!!!!
2012 has begun, and I was hoping to have a year without loss. 2011 was filled and ended with quite alot of loss.
I returned home last night to email messages on facebook, that yet again another friend and the first of 2012 has unexpectedly died.
This is now the 7th friend that I have learned on facebook has died. So bizare.
I woke up this morning really wiped out. I looked out my bedroom window and was able to see that there was going to be a really beautiful sunrise. I contemplated going back to bed because I was exhausted. Instead I put on some clothes and ran down to the beach to watch the day begin.
While there I decided to honor my friends life, by claiming this sunrise as his.
After I greeted the day and said goodbye to my friend, I got back home and crawled into bed. I did not know if I was physically or psychologically tired. I slept until 9am, and than forced myself out of bed.
I needed to start my day.......I did not know what that was going to mean today.
It was a GORGEOUS DAY today....I managed to go for a run, and than walked the boardwalk. I decided to just sit at the beach and just BE. While sitting there I met a girl named Bonnie.
She and I had an hour plus conversation about LIFE & LIVING IT.
Upon returning home, I was emotional and realized that I was struggling. I was conflicted about going into NYC for the services. I normally deal with death well.
I AM NOT AFRAID TO DIE.
I think Larry's death is really affecting me because it is a culmination of all of the loss I have had over the past six months. Everyone was with in ten years of my age.
They were YOUNG.
LESON......LIFE IS TO BE LIVED!!!!!!! NOW!
NOT AT SOME LATER DATE.
Like I said, I am not afraid to die, but this has all brought to mind the realization that I may not be able to do all that I want with my life.
Why??? BECAUSE TIME MOVES QUICK AND IS RUNNING SHORT.
DO NOT PUT OFF LIVING! IF YOU DO, YOU MAY NOT GET THE CHANCE.
R.I.P LARRY
You will be missed.
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