THE FINAL GOODBYE & OTHER THOUGHTS

 THE FINAL GOODBYE  & OTHER THOUGHTS.

One day at a time.  

So today is 2.24.21 The Anniversary of my family laying my grandmother at her final resting place for this leg of her journey.  

26 YEARS AGO TODAY.  It does not seem possible. YET IT IS..

LIFE & LOSS is so much a part of what we experience as we all move along our journey.

To my grandmother, I SAY THANK YOU. 

Thank you for your unconditional LOVE. I do not take it for granted. 

The start of the new year has been somewhat rough on all fronts.  Mainly because it has been colored by SO MUCH LOSS. Current and remembrances of loss (PAST) regarding friends and family.

Also the loss of our FREEDOMS. LIFE AS WE KNEW IT. 

For some loss of health, mental well being, loss of jobs/careers.  LOSS OF SELF.

I personally have suffered from all of these.

It has been extremely challenging. But through all of this lessons have been learned. 

For me, one of the lessons is knowing how resilient I am. But also how vulnerable and susceptible to everything I have ben through.

 ALSO WE NEED ONE ANOTHER. CAN'T DO THIS THING CALLED LIFE ALONE.

I always say as humans we can not compare ourselves to others. EASIER SAID THAN DONE. 

Also, everyones pain is their pain, and should not be denied.  It is legitimate and worthy of being addressed. 

I as many of us are dealing with things we have never had to deal with before and figuring out how to process it ALL.

As a global community we have been in a collective state of mourning for a full year now as we have witnessed the tragic loss of over five hundred thousand 500,000 lives lost here in the United States and two and one half million 2. 5 million people Worldwide.  SO MUCH LOSS. SO MANY PEOPLE SUFFERING.  TRAGIC. 

My heart hurts for ALL OF US. 

I personally have been in mourning for years. I feel like I have been in mourning my whole life. 

Mourning for friends, family, loved ones, pets, my youth, my sexuality, lack of career, not having a significant other, now coming to terms and mourning the loss of my younger life and coming to terms with AGING.  It is NO JOKE. 

I say none of this seeking pity. 

This for me as an artist is very therapeutic for me. I have journaled since I was seventeen. I now call myself the almost 55 year old Doggie Howser.

I also feel like we our mourning the loss of respect, morals, humanity, ideals, government, climate. 

WE OUR LOSING SO MUCH. IT IS ALOT. 

I am going to choose to be HOPEFUL AND TRUST THAT LOVE WINS. 

WE ALL MUST KEEP, KEEPING ON. 

I WANT TO SEND LOVE TO EVERYONE. 

I would like to have a bit of a reprieve from anymore loss. PLEASE. 

Caitlin Kelly,  James Allen MacCormack, Mark Hamilton Pottage

Andrew Mejury, Kristoff St John, Luke Perry

and of course my grandmother MADELINE CORINA 

Thoughts are with all who MISS & LOVE you ALL. 

GODSPEED