REMEMBERING

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY.

17 years ago today my grandmother made her transition.
It is crazy it has been so long. I MISS YOU TODAY AND ALWAYS.

This may sound strange, but being with her as she left this earth as difficult as it was, it was also one of the most beautiful things I have yet to experience and be witness to.

I was in Los Angeles working on a movie, and waiting to hear on another, when I received the call that it was time to come back home. The time was drawing near. I hopped on a plane and made my way home just in time before my grandmother was starting to lose consciousness.

I had to pull out of the project that I was working on. The other movie was down to myself and another guy for the lead. It went in his favor. Luckily it went that way otherwise I would have been in Latvia with no way of getting home. THINGS HAVE A WAY OF WORKING OUT.

We had my grandmother released from the hospital and set up hospice at moms.

Gram transitioned around all of her family. We set her up in the dining room where we shared so many wonderful holidays together. We decorated the dining room with all stuff from grams house, like the cross that hung over her bed which I now have in my posession.

The kids drew pictures and we played the beautiful music of Yanni.

Her transition came early in the morning.

Yanni's music is very significant to my family and I.

In the Morning Light & Until the Last Moment.

Very significant....I am listening to them now. I am not sad. I am just remembering.

It is hard to believe it has been 17 years. While on this earth she was my guardian angel and still all these years since she has passed, she still guides me. THANK YOU.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY GRAM........I WILL ALEWAYS LOVE YOU.

JOEY XO

Greatest Love of All....Sometimes it is not enough.

2/11/12

GREATEST LOVE OF ALL. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. I LOOK TO YOU.

What great songs, sung by an amazing talent who was silenced today.

WHITNEY HOUSTON DEAD!!! 48 YEARS OLD. WAY TO YOUNG.
Her story prematurely has ended.

I got chills as the news broke reporting her death. It is a very sad and tragic end to an incredible talent who was HUMAN and plagued by demons.

Maybe the song should have been titled "I Will Always Love Me"
I have said in earlier writings, self-love is the hardest love to achieve, but by far the most valuable love to acquire.

Without the love of self we wander this world in search of other people and things to fill in the emptiness that we have in our lives.

I look at Whitney Houston who was probably one of the greatest singers ever, and definately for my generation. WHAT A GIFT.

Still she like all of us, is human, and was trying to make her way through this life the best way she was able to. Life's journey is not an easy one. The journey is filled with obstacles along the way.

We look at CELEBRITY, such as WHITNEY HOUSTON, who we as common folks admire and look up to. We think how lucky they are to be who they are, and to be where they are in life.

We also say, well if they have issues and problems in their lives, they at least have the financial ability to take care of themselves. Having money and being a celebrity does not mean that you will live a life without struggle. It is usually the opposite. I think celebrity brings more struggle into ones life. You are living your life in the public eye. People tend to forget that we are all human. We all at the end of the day have the same needs.

When the news broke everyone took to the social networks to express their sadness and grief.
I must say that most people were very respectful, that a daughter lost her mother and a mother lost her daughter.

Yes it was public knowledged that Whitney has been plagued with a drug addiction and other issues. I was very happy to see that most people were remembering the amazing talent and gift that was lost. Of course there were and always will be those that are completely ignorant. They try and make themselves feel better by making fun of others misfortune.

I feel very sad for these people.

Anyway while we are moving through life we need to "LEARN TO LOVE OURSELVES, IT IS THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL"

R.I.P WHITNEY HOUSTON 2/11/12
THANK YOU FOR YOUR GIFT

Repitition

Repitition

1989 North Hollywood California was the first time I was introduced to the term REPITITION.
I was a young actor studying the Meisner Technique @ Playhouse West.

It was called the REPITITION excercise.
I with my acting partner would just say something and repeat it back and forth to each other, until one of us was prompted AUTHENTICALLY to make a change.

Since those days in acting class all those years ago, I have throughout my life continued to play THE REPITITION GAME by continuing to deal with the same issues and problems.

I WANT TO SAVE PEOPLE. This is often at the expense of losing myself.
I tend to be a giver. Unfortunately usually I give to all of the wrong people. I find myself investing in people that are not a good investment. Not that they are not nice people perhaps. But usually there is very little if any return on my investment.

People know that I am a nice guy and a generous guy. Knowing that, I find that I am usually not appreciated and often times completely taken advantage of.

I always find the wounded bird that needs to be nursed back to health, wheather it be emotionally, financially, psychologically and sometimes even physically.

I did this also as a child with animals.

I can not even tell you how many times I have helped friends financially and was screwed over.
This past fall I was having this conversation with a friend and he said flat out that he does not lend money, and that I myself had to make a promise to stop.

I really had to take a look at this issue that was being repeated over and over again.

After much reflection I realized that I was trying to insure these friendships by buying them. I was always concerned about being liked and being the nice guy. Let me tell you being the nice often times leads to alot of heartache and headaches.

Well sadly I must say none of the relationship have survived. REPITITION.

What happens in life is until we LEARN THE LESSON, AND REALLY LEARN IT. IT WILL REPEAT.

The universe is a wonderful teacher,and such a patient teacher, that it will continue to present the same issues in ones life until they GET IT.

My suggestion to all of you out there........BE A GOOD STUDENT.
LEARN QUICKER THAN ME, AND SAVE YOURSELF ALOT OF MONEY AND HEARTACHE.

ONLY HAVE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE THAT WANT TO BE THERE AUTHENTICALLY. DO NOT FORCE ANYONE TO BE ANYWHERE THEY DO NOT WANT TO BE.

These two images are what I consider a great return on my investment. It is all about Gratitude.