SEARCHING FOR THE ANSWERS

SEARCHING SEARCHING SEARCHING.

I am an avid reader always in search of ways for me to continue to live freely and joyfully.

Let me tell you the journey is WORTH IT.  Although there are moments where I wish I were able to live in the confines of THE BOX.

I JUST CAN'T. NOR DO I WANT TO.

Trust me, I wish I could. Life would be so different if I could.

This year I set a goal of reading at least two books a month.

The book that I am currently reading is called The Energy of Money.

ENERGY OF MONEY.

Money for some comes effortlessly and for others with many obstacles and not very easily.

WHY????????????????

I am one of those where I always manage to just get by with much struggle.
It has never flowed easily.

2014 I am going to find out the reason and CHANGE IT.

I need to get my financial house in order as well as every other area of my life.

I am tired of the STRUGGLE.

It has been a rocky few weeks since the new year has begun.

I have had much anxiety and have been allowing FEAR to occupy my mind.

I have been questioning my decision about being back here in Los Angeles and not sure that I am up to the challenge of what one needs to go through in Los Angeles to just get by.

If I am going to reamain here, I need to change my way of thinking and stop buying into the story that it has to be all about struggle and lack.

I know that I am a SURVIVOR.

I have what it takes to CREATE THE LIFE I WANT TO LIVE. I NEED TO JUST BELIEVE IN MY ABILITIES.

My mom always says we are given in life nothing more than we can handle. I NEED TO TRUST THAT.

I wish each and everyone of you who is out there searching and questioning to CONTINUE.
Know that as difficult and hopeless as it may seem at times. IT IS WORK THE WORK AND EFFORT.

TRUST THAT THE LIGHT WILL ALWAYS LEAD YOU.

So the two books that I have read this month are as follows.

1. What would you do if you could not fail? How to transform Fear into Courage
Nina Lesowitz & Mary Beth Sammons
2. The Energy of Money  A spiritual guide to financial and personal fulfiillment.
Maria Nemeth.

BACK TO ONE

January 1, 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Today is a new beginning, allowing us to go BACK TO ONE and a chance to start over.
An opportunity to create the life that we want to live rather than the life we have been living.

We get to determine how we are going to tell our story.

Everyone has different ways of preparing for the new year.

My roommate for example spent the whole day cleaning and purging. Very important to make room for what we are seeking. The only way to really do that, is to let go of things and people that are holding us back and not allowing us to live our dreams by their negativity or non-support.

Others like to party the old year out and the new year in.

At different times in my life I have done both.

The way that I like to prepare for the new year is to be by myself and reflect on the year ending and set my intentions for the new year.
Usually I like to be near the water(ocean) I do this hoping I have the courage, determination, discipline, focus and strength to follow through on what ever I decide I need to do to make the new year different than the year that is ending.

It all comes down to making the RIGHT CHOICES, STAYING FOCUSED AND NOT GETTING SIDETRACKED.

Life comes with hurdles and obstacles. That is just the way life works.

I know for me personally the beginning of a new year is so exciting and filled with promise of there really being the opportunity to CREATE THE LIFE I REALLY WANT.

At the same time self-doubt creeps in and I wonder, will the new year be any DIFFERENT, BETTER, EASIER or is it going to be the same struggle of years past.

My friend who I went hiking with wished me a peaceful night and a gentle transitioin into the new year.  I thought what a beautiful way to enter the new year.

My attempt at this was somewhat succcessful. I jumped into bed at 9PM to read. I was fast asleep before entering the new year. I woke up a little less than excited as I got in my HEAD. AVERY DANGEROUS PLACE TO LIVE. Because I got into my head I was dealing with a bit of anxiety and some dread as I pushed though the day.

I am feeling better now as I make this entry.
 I hope that each and everyone of you is able to CREATE the WONDERFUL life that you all DESIRE.

Some of you may be asking yourself if this is possible.

I am telling you that YES IT IS. Why? BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTHY.

LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF AND TRUST THAT YOU ARE WORTHY OF WHATEVER RICHES YOU DESIRE

PEACE AND BLESSING FOR AN AWE INSPIRING 2014

BELIEVE, FAITH, HOPE, TRUST.