SIMPLY LUKE

LUKE

3.4. 2019

A shocking and sad day as yet another friend was called HOME.

SUDDENLY & without WARNING.

52 YEARS OLD. The cause. MASSIVE STROKE.

52 is my age. Actually I am six months older than LUKE.

As well wishes were coming in from around the world for a SPEEDY & COMPLETE RECOVERY, because at 52 one still has so much LIFE TO LIVE.

EVERYONE WAS HOLDING OUT HOPE.

Well a few days later on 3.4.2019 the news outlets broke the news that Luke was GONE.

GONE. What does that mean? It can not be possible. YET IT WAS.

My friend was GONE. This part of his story was complete.

I was blessed to call this man a FRIEND. Such a BEAUTIFUL HUMAN.

Luke was fortunate enough to have been a part of 90's POP CULTURE. Luke landed the role of DYLAN MCKAY which really put LUKE on the map as a bonafide CELEBRITY & HEARTTHROB.

Luke was grateful for his BLESSINGS, yet unaffected by his CELEBRITY.

He was a PRIVATE MAN living in a PUBLIC WORLD.

Those of us who had the good fortune of meeting and knowing LUKE were gifted with KINDNESS, LOVE,PRESENCE.

Luke was the REAL THING. A rarity in the INDUSTRY.

Like our mutual friend Cassie mentioned Luke was more comfortable and at home on a farm than on the RED CARPET.

He loved talking about REAL LIFE ISSUES.  LOVED HIS CHILDREN.

The past few days have been extremely upsetting hearing the news of Luke. Through tears and anger regarding Luke's loss, I smile as I read all of the messages of condolence coming in from EVERYONE.

Luke was loved by so many and will be missed by us ALL.

The common message coming in from AROUND THE WORLD was what A TRULY KIND & GENTLE SOUL LUKE WAS.

To the World most people new LUKE AS DYLAN MCKAY from BH 90210 or any of the other characters he has played.

 I was/am a LUKE PERRY FAN MYSELF.

I GOT TO BE FAN & FRIEND

Filled with GRATITUDE FOR HAVING KNOWN  YOU AND SHARED  GREAT CONVERSATION AND GOOD TIMES.

I WILL FOREVER REMEMBER THE CHRISTMAS WE WENT TO THE MOVIES AND DINNER.

LOVE YOU LUKE.

Thank you for sharing yourself with your fans, friends, family & ME.

I took these photos the day I learned the news that you embarked on a new journey. I want to believe this was you SOARING ONTO WHAT IS NEXT.

I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN MY FRIEND. THANK YOU. PEACE & FRIENDSHIP.

24

2/21/19

Makes 24.

24 years ago this week.

Specifically 2/21/95 God had a plan for you to depart on a very cold winter day to begin whatever comes next when one leaves their earthly form.

Losing you was devastating on the whole family. We loved you and wanted you to stay with us FOREVER.

Forever I have come to realize is for as long as a RELATIONSHIP or LIFE lasts.

Still to this day one of my favorite memories as difficult as it was to lose you. It was to be there with you as you made your transition.

One of the most beautiful things I have experienced and I will treasure that moment and be grateful until I am embark on my new journey whenever that time comes.

In death one can FIND BEAUTY.

Mom's house was filled with LOVE & FAMILY for three days as you were preparing to begin your NEW JOURNEY.

This month has been a month of LOSS.

Earlier this month while on a quick trip to LA.  I received the devastating news that a member  of the family decided to take his life.

Getting the news of Drews suicide was HEARTBREAKING.

The outpouring of love and support for Marisa in her time of unimaginable loss was a BEAUTIFUL yet very sad thing to be a part of and witness.

There really is truth to the saying "There is the family that we are BORN into and the family we CREATE.

The family of misfits that was CREATED from my time at Tom Bergin's and Los Angeles WAS & IS THE REAL DEAL.

These people are beautiful SOULS that have traveled along my journey with me. THANK YOU. Some are still with me on this journey and some no more.
But with age and time you come to realize that not everyone is meant to STAY.

Some are meant to COME & GO.

That is ok. Everyone that has been a part of my journey  I am grateful for all of you and every thing that I have experienced. GRATITUDE IS KEY.

I just read something on facebook. "Watching someone you love die is an image you NEVER forget."

This is something that I totally agree with.

Me getting to watch my grandmother die was SPECIAL & BEAUTIFUL.

My friends who witnessed their loved ones die and the circumstances that they died in NOT SO MUCH.  Although I do believe with time they will come to realize that being a part of the transition of their loved ones will be something they will come to CHERISH.

Death is something we will all experience when our time here is complete.

There is BEAUTY in death.
If you are a lover of nature to watch autumn turn to winter is a spectacular event to witness.


The end of one thing is the beginning of another. IN MY BELIEF.

The best piece of wisdom I can share with all of you including myself is that WE MUST LIVE OUR BEST LIVES. That is what we are meant to do.

For those no longer here, to honor their lives we need to LIVE FULL OUT.

I WISH ALL OF US LOVE & HEALING & KINDNESS AS WE CARRY ON.

THE STRUGGLE IS REAL.

BUT WE HAVE THE POWER TO OVERCOME.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. GO CREATE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY GRANDMOTHER WHO TOLD ME, "THE SUN DOES NOT SHINE EVERYDAY, BUT IT WILL COME OUT AGAIN."

WE NEED TO LOVE OURSELVES AND ONE ANOTHER. PEACE.

 BELIEVE AND TRUST.

REUNITED IN GRIEF

REUNITED IN GRIEF.

So I was just two weeks ago on an impromptu trip to LOS ANGELES.

Los Angeles has been my HOME for 23 consecutive years before I decided to exit in 2009 to embark on whatever was to be next.

JANUARY 28TH marked my 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY of stepping out from behind the bar at TOM BERGIN'S where I was a RESIDENT BARTENDER for almost 13 years.

The bar has since closed down. I thought it would be cool to fly out to LA and catch up with as many of my BERGIN'S FAMILY as possible during my trip.

Well I was REUNITED with FRIENDS & FAMILY, some who I have not seen since I left LA.

This reunion worked out  much different than I was hoping.

This reunion happened when I received a text at 6:22AM on 2/1/2019
"Words cannot express the sadness you have come home to. Call me when you get this."

Upon me waking up and seeing the text. I immediately phone my friend. I said to her, Who is dead?

Unfortunately I was correct in thinking someone had died. My friend delivered the news that our mutual friend decided that life was too much. Through his INCREDIBLE PAIN he reached out to friends and people were alarmed for his safety. After a FRANTIC SEARCH his partner and some friends found him. UNFORTUNATELY TOO LATE.

Our friend HUNG HIMSELF.

HANGING has become all too common. I have personally known 7 people in the last 18 plus months. Including my agent, and a childhood friend, whose son at 27 was battling ANXIETY & DEPRESSION.

I have also had 2 attempts with my sister.

MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES ARE REAL.  WE NEED TO TALK AND FEEL SAFE IN DOING SO.

Every family to some degree has these issues.  WE NEED TO LOOK FOR THE SIGNS.

A very SAD & TRAGIC time for OUR friends and family.  My heart breaks for his partner who he shared 22 plus years with. Me and my friends are very concerned for her as she mourns the loss of her SOULMATE.

She will now have to learn how to move on physically,spirtitually,financially and emotionally.
The road ahead of her is LONG.

PLEASE IF YOU ARE SUFFERING REACH OUT TO A FRIEND, FAMILY MEMBER, HEALTHCARE PROFESSIONAL, EVEN A STRANGER.

NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE 1-800-273-8255
24 HIURS A DAY/EVERYDAY

I wish her COMPLETE HEALING as she continues on her JOURNEY.  I know this will take time if not A LIFETIME.
I said to her if he was able to stay he would have.

DREW WAS LOVED BY MANY AND WILL SORELY BE MISSED BY MANY.
He was a FANTASTIC GUY and the LIFE OF THE PARTY who was always there to greet you with a HUG & HAPPY TO SEE YOU.

I have been in and out of LA over the past 10 years. But on my trips back they were always made better by seeing DREW &  MARISA.  LOVED DREW & LOVE YOU.

This weekend was a HORRIBLE WEEKEND. I am GRATEFUL I WAS IN TOWN AND WAS ABLE TO BE WITH EVERYONE DURING THIS TIME.  I LOVE YOU ALL. MY HEARTBREAKS FOR US ALL.

The very same weekend the SOAP OPERA WORLD lost one of their own when Kristoff St. John was found dead in his home on Sunday February 3, 2019 of a suspected suicide.  They say that Kristoff died of a broken heart never getting over the loss of his son who years earlier died of suicide.

I had the pleasure of meeting and working with Kristoff on my very first Soap Opera job.

HOPING BOTH DREW & KRISTOFF ARE ON A PAIN FREE NEW JOURNEY FILLED WITH PEACE & HAPPINESS. HOPING KRISTOFF IS REUNITED WITH HIS SON.

FLY FREE GUYS.

CURVE BALLS

CURVE BALLS.

Just like in a game of baseball life some times along the journey throws us CURVE BALLS.

The best way to get through these times is by being FLEXIBLE.
Flexible to whatever you may being facing.

The beginning of the new year for me is a time of HOPE.

HOPE & DETERMINATION.

I usually like to spend the last day of the year ALONE & QUIET with my thoughts.
I like to  REFLECT & JOURNAL on what my life was the previous 365 DAYS.

There is a MOMENTUM that comes with leaving a previous year in the past and moving on to what I hope will be a BRIGHTER, MORE FULFILLING FUTURE.

My goal is to always be GRATEFUL for all of the LESSONS AND EXPERIENCES that I have.

Sometimes it is not always comfortable where I am, or what I am going through in life. But I am a believer that whatever and wherever I am in life, I am meant to be there at that exact time for whatever lesson I am suppose to learn.

LESSONS ARE REPEATED UNTIL THEY ARE LEARNED. This I believe is the universe being PATIENT and having FAITH that with DETERMINATION AND WILL, WE WILL BE ABLE TO OVERCOME THE CURVE BALLS THROWN MY/OUR WAY..

The new year is always a time that I like to SET INTENTIONS & GOALS for what is to come.

I hate being sick at the beginning of a new year. When I am I often wonder is that is an indication of how the new year will play out.

What I am realizing that being sick at the beginning of the new year might be a way of the universe allowing me like a MARATHON RUNNER not expend all the energy before the NEW YEAR really begins.

Maybe it is a way to really do a system of CHECKS & BALANCES to make sure that the GOALS & INTENTIONS are in fact worth the ENERGY that will be spent for I/us to attain.

Of course I like many sure hope to improve the QUALITY OF OUR LIVES from year to year.
Starting the year off sick almost feels like the AIR has been knocked out of me at times.  It leaves me second guessing if things will be any different.

Throughout my life I have stumbled more times I would like to admit but the older I get I am realizing it is all part of WHATEVER I AM SUPPOSE TO LEARN IN THIS LIFE.

BELIEVING,HOPING,PRAYING, TRUSTING and WORKING  on continuing to  GROW and LEARN on this ROLLERCOASTER OF A RIDE CALLED LIFE.

I am learning to just ACCEPT IT IS A PROCESS and Be GRATEFUL that I am open and RECEPTIVE TO GOING ALONG THE JOURNEY.

PEACE AND BLESSINGS AND LOVE TO YOU ALL.

MAY YOU ALL TRAVELING ALONG YOUR JOURNEY PRACTICE GRATITUDE.

 IN A TIME OF DARKNESS IN THE WORLD LET US ALL SHINE LIGHT AND SHARE LOVE AND BE KIND.