REFLECTING ON LOSS
I closed out 2019 sick and went in 2020 sick.
It has been a ROUGH START to 2020.
2019 was a year of tremendous loss.
The year closed itself out with the loss of 13 friends and family members. I know in life there is loss. It is part of LIVING LIFE.
Of course the older we get it become more likely. The loss of my friends and family were between the ages of 40-60.
That is young. They all had so much more life to live. Gifts to share. A few were fighting and got to a point where they were unable to continue fighting.
Some were waging war with their bodies, other waging war with their minds. Some just wound up leaving with no warnings whatsoever.
CANCER, SUICIDE, STROKE, HEART ATTACK.
Do not even know how you go about processing so much loss. We just began the one year anniversaries of all of the loss.
What I believe I have learned through all of the loss is that we must accept the loss and in my belief that all those that have gone have completed their work here. Because of that they were able to move on to what is NEXT.
Those of us still here trying to navigate LIFE are here because there are lessons that we still need to LEARN. Gifts we still have to SHARE.
I am not even sure that I have even properly mourned all of these beautiful people who have gone.
In honor of them all, I am working really hard on LIVING MY BEST LIFE.
So many of us merely EXIST. I don't want to just exist. We are not meant to just EXIST.
From all this loss I understand in the big scheme of things we are really only loaned the bodies that we are in for a very short period of time. I have known this from a very young age but still have BLOCKED MY BLESSING through the years due to not feeling WORTHY, FEAR and SELF SABOTAGE
I HAVE WASTED so much of the time that I have been here already.
My goal moving forward is to honor not only my friends lost last year, but all those that have been lost weather I have personally known them or not.
TO LIVE LIFE IN THE NOW. LIVE LIFE FULL OUT.
I sit here writing this entry on the 25th Anniversary of my grandmother Madeline Corinas passing. She was fortunate to live to 89 years of age.
As she was preparing for her transition. She said," 89 years goes by really quick".
We as humans waste so much time giving energy to things that do not matter.
LIFE IS ABOUT LIVING JOYFULLY, BEING KIND AND HAVING A LOVING HEART.
Also LOVE YOURSELF.
In life there is darkness and light. Beauty can be found in both.
In life there will be OBSTACLES and STRUGGLES without a doubt. We get to choose how we RESPOND to these UPSETS.
Are CHOICE will make all the difference.
To all those that embarked on new journeys last year.
Thank you for allowing me to share space with you while we were both traveling here on Earth. I look froward to catching up with you all and sharing time and space wherever you all may be traveling now.
I HOLD YOU ALL DEAR TO MY HEART.
PEACE & BLESSINGS
