PASSING BY

PASSING BY.

WHAT IS PASSING BY?  LIFE.

We only have the NOW.  As I MOVING QUICKLY towards 50.

I am making CHANGES, REFLECTING & Setting INTENTIONS to move into the next PHASE.

Call it the SECOND HALF/CHAPTER or the FINAL CHAPTER. WHO KNOWS.


I don't know what it all means. What I do know is that I am so HAPPY  that I am WILLING & have the COURAGE to step outside the box and GO ON THE RIDE.

Throughout my life I have made alot of MISTAKES. I have made MANY, MANY WRONG CHOICES.

But I am not sure they were mistakes and wrong choices. MY BELIEF is that we are exactly where we are suppose to be in life when we are there.

Lessons to be learned either for ourselves or for others.

I am looking forward to getting out on the road and getting back intouch with my CREATIVE & SPIRITUAL SELF.

I am excited by the mystery of it all and of the NOT KNOWING.

By not knowing I am left to TRUST.

I DO.

I trust that EVERYTHING IS REVEALED IN ITS PERFECT TIME.

The key that I have discovered that works for me is to LIVE to the best of my ability.

I want to take the time to thank my mom for teaching me to have COMPASSION and to be a KIND &CARING Human being.  Especially living today in this world where so many are OBLIVIOUS to there surroundings and are only SELF INVOVED.

I encourage us all to be a little KINDER as we move through our day and our LIVES.

There is so much craziness in the World today.

My heart goes out to all those involved and those who lost their lives in yet another act of HATE in BELGIUM. PRAYERS FOR BELGIUM.

I also wanted to send love and light to childhood friends whose son went missing on Christmas Day and was found almost ten weeks later when his body was returned to the family.

I WANT TO ENCOURAGE ALL OF US TO GO OUT ON A LIMB.

We only live once. LETS MAKE IT COUNT.

This painting was done by the very talented Thom Bierdz

TIME FOR CHANGE

TIME FOR CHANGE.

THE WORD ARRIVED TODAY.

I can begin to wind down my life here in Los Angeles.

Last year before I got the job at the Westin Bonaventure I was ready to trade in mylife in LA for life back on the road.

Once I got the JOB. That is what it is and has been.

 I would see how things would work out.  Of course as soon as I got the job, I also got an opportunity to go and work in Alaska for the season which I pursued and was offered the job. Unfortunately they would not let me sublease my place so I passed on the job.

I knew it was something I was interested in doing so I kept the lines of communication open and stayed in contact and this year they have offered me the job.

So here I haved received what I have asked for which is GREAT.
So why am  I now beginning to have doubts. WHY? I am not really having doubts. I know this is a great opportunity for me.

FEAR. FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL.

This will allow me to take a 4200 mile roadtrip through the Pacific Northwest and Alaska which is a part of the country I have not yet visited but have always wanted to.

ALASKA has always been a BUCKETLIST TRIP I have wanted to take.

It allows me to take a few weeks off and than have a job for 4.5 months.

What does all of this mean?   I get to finally leave LA and the hotel which has been a steady gig, my first since leaving LA IN 09 The one bad thing leaving the job is that I honestly really sincerely like and enjoy everyone that I work with.

So it removes the safety net which has given me reason after reason to not focus my energies on my passion and dreams. I have allowed my self to SELLOUT for the SECURITY of a PAYCHECK.

Actually I need to cut myself some slack. I did what I neeeded to do.  THAT IS OK.

That is NOT WHO I AM.

Getting out on the road I am TRUSTING will get me back in touch with my SOUL.

I am going IN SEARCH OF FOOD FOR THE SOUL.

I am trying to do a plus and minus for taking the job and leaving LA.  I need to keep telling myself CHANGE IS GOOD. CHANGE IS WHAT FEEDS MY SOUL. I NEED TO TRUST.

I KNOW I AM A SURVIVOR.

I am 8 weeks from turning 50. THE BIG 50.
I am full of GRATITUDE FOR THIS GIFT. So many were not given the opportunity.

It is time for an ADVENTURE. This is a good thing.
LIFE IS ABOUT MOVEMENT. I NEED TO GO WITH THE FLOW.

IT IS SO IMPORTANT TO ANSWER THE CALL.

TIME TO GO OUT ON A LIMB. TRUSTING MY DECISION.

Art work by Thom Bierdz.