ONE YEAR WITHOUT YOU

WHAT A DIFFERENCE A YEAR MAKES

September 30, 2011 my friend Charlie's world was turned upside down.

It is the day that his wife Gia went into labor as they for the previous nine months anxiously awaited the birth of their third son.

Gia was a dulla and was preparing for a home birth which should have been a very exciting time for them. They were thrilled to be introducing a new son to their ever growing family.

During the delivery something went horribly wrong and their son was lost. Due to the complications and the loss of their son there was a very strong possibility that he would also be losing his wife. Unfortunately for my friend that is exactly what happened. VERY TRAGIC.

As new spread cross country everyone was in shock and total disbelief.

Every ones reaction was "What are you talking about women in 2011 do not die during childbirth."

We were all stunned and heartbroken for Charlie who was now mourning the loss of his son Samson and his wife Gia and left to be the sole caregiver for their twin boys Charlie and Nate who were just babies not even three years old.

Everyone was wondering how is Charlie going to do this.

I have been in pretty regular contact with Charlie over the course of this extremely difficult year.
I was able to go and visit he and the boys shortly after he losing part of his family to try and give his some help in whatever small way possible for a few days.

Than in July I was very happy to host he and the boys here at the beach for a couple of days.

What I have witnessed from my friend is compassion,love and patience all to the highest degree.

I have known Charlie for over ten years and always found him to be an amazing inspirational guy.

The strength he has is AMAZING.

I wish you continued STRENGTH,LIGHT & LOVE as you move forward and create a new normal for Charlie, Nate and yourself.

I know this has been probably the worst year of your life but know that you are and have done an amazing job.

GIA would be so PROUD of the AMAZING job you are doing with the boys.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND CONTINUE TO GUIDE YOU MY FRIEND AS YOU AND THE BOYS CONTINUE ON YOUR JOURNEY.

Thank you for teaching me what it means to have courage and strength.

I went out today to the spot that I went to last year when you told me about the tremendous loss you had just suffered. This is what the spot looked like.

I have a a tremendous amount of RESPECT for you my friend.

LOVE YOU MY FRIEND.

GOING W/THE FLOW

When one goes with the flow life tends to be in constant motion. MOVING.

I on the other hand for the better part of this whole year have been working against myself, and working against what I want.

It finally dawned on me the other day when I went into NYC yet again for and interview for a job I did not want. A SURVIVAL JOB.

I DON'T WANT A SURVIVAL JOB.

This day in particular I was wearing many hats.
I had an audition in the morning and than a few job interviews in the afternoon for bartending jobs.
That evening I got to actually work as a photographer shooting a fashion show.

It was a very long day with the commute but  a very good day.

I was telling myself that I was actually excited about the bartending job.
Who was I kidding?
The interview went very well and they were going to get back to me. They wanted to bring me in to train that week. They did not get back to me so I decided to not spite myself and check in to see what was going on. When I spoke with the manger they gave me the run around.

This was my FEAR creeping in.
FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL.

After getting the run around, in that moment I realized that it was the Universe coming to my aide and not delivering or allowing me to take a job that I did not want.

I have this past year submitted close to 3000 resume for jobs all over the world that i did not or do not want. I was than getting upset because I was not getting any responses from all of my efforts.

I realize that if the time and energy that I have wasted this year looking for that LIVE INSIDE THE BOX/SURVIVAL JOB was put to better use looking for what I do want, my life would be alot  different and I would be doing what I WANT.

Once I decided to surrender over the past few days and trust and believe in my talent as an artist and a photographer.  GUESS WHAT....THE UNIVERSE IS NOW OPEING UP DOORS AND I AM BOOKING JOBS.

It feels good having my talent recognized and being paid for my gift.

Our job on this earth to FIND & SHARE OUR GIFTS.

If you are unsure of what your gift is. DO YOURSELF A FAVOR TAKE THE TIME TO FIGURE IT OUT.

Once you do, SHARE IT.   SHINE YOUR LIGHT.

Peace and Blessing to all.